Apparently I am supposed to physically feel my emotions and respond to them instead of not knowing what happens to them most of the time which indicates that I am partially emotionally detached according to a scale of “woah excitement is in my fingers” to “my response to you asking me something about myself is I don’t know”
Discovering feelings in the body
The other way you know if you are emotionally numb is if you don’t have oodles of people that both hate and love you, that is because the numbeness is a gift that allows you to protect yourself from too much dislike, just gotta learn to get comfortable with dislike in order to maximize the amount of people that like you.
I can see why they might seem similar. And you can certainly pursue hedonism in an egoistic manner.
But I prefer a utilitarian version of hedonism, which doesn’t necesserily need to come with any level of selfishness. It can, but it doesn’t have to.
I make selfish decisions at times, but try to make sure that doing things for my benefit doesn’t cost someone else.
Taking it even further, putting in a bunch of work to throw someone else a super fun surprise party, is hedonistic, but not very egoistic.
Hedonism is to maximise pleasure while avoiding pain. Unlike egoism, it doesn’t have to focus on only your own pain or pleasure.